I thank Lora Munn, my dear friend for being the midwife of this offering. We offered these gatherings for the first 8 months or so before I began to hold them on my own. I feel so blessed to have had her come into my life and take on the feeding of this craving together. She is a Mamma of three beautiful children and her heart called her to retract to allow more time with her family. I feel she blessed the space with her genuine heart before stepping out and leaving it with me to carry on. I will always thank her for that.
I have a history of facilitating Maya Full Moon Women’s Ceremonies that deeply involve the medicine of Cacao and I began studying Womb Healing around the same time which wove the two together very deeply in my personal journey. Though the Women’s Gatherings are not this particular ceremony, this is where the foundation of my relationship with the spirt of cacao and the spirit of the womb began. I want to thank and honor my teachers Katie-Keath Silva, Ann Drucker, the Goddess IxChel who these Maya ceremonies are in name of, as well as Miss Beatrice Torres Waight - Maya Medicine Woman and dear friend of Katie-Keath and Ann’s who’s family and lineage these teachings came from.
I hold this space with the intention for women to allow themselves to let go, where they can be held and hold one another. A space where they can connect and let spirit flow through them, a space for them to journey to their womb and find their power, voice, and wisdom within. My intention is to hold a space for you to release, receive and surrendered to the healing that is awaiting you.
These gatherings come from deep within my heart and it is an honor to hold this space and share what has been shared with me.
I have been seeing this everywhere and I don't know quite why it's taken me so long say it myself. Everything I offer is around providing a platform for women to speak. Here this came, two simple words and I’m surprised how hard it was to type.
The shame I still feel has been illuminated even though I know “better" than to feel shame. It's illuminated the impact of being ostracized. Ostracized by people I love very much for speaking up. I know it's not out of cruelty or lack of love. It's not simple at all, it’s very complex. Nobody wants to believe anybody they love is capable of such a thing and regardless which end of the story you lie on, it hurts incredibly.
I can see in every person who has violated me physically or verbally, who have not stopped when I said no, who have objectified me, mocked me, catcalled me and those have gotten aggressive with me to keep me mouth shut - I can see It's beyond them. I know it’s not personal. It is deeply systemic. I see how the web travels, not that it makes the behaviors excusable by any means but I see how it happens. It’s interwoven through the whole human race in every culture, every gender, every class and just about every age.
It’s everywhere. Some of it’s ignorance, some of it’s media, some of it’s been passed on generation after generation. The list goes on and on.
The pain goes both ways. And it goes deep.
In some ways we have come so, so far and in some ways it blows my mind what is still happening. It feels good to say what I have, there is so much I haven’t said and still feel vulnerable and scared to say anything at all.
To the men. I know you are the central target when it comes to this topic and I also know there are many amazing men. Men who have been saviors by being a healthy role model of what a man can be to the women who have never experienced that. I hope you know how invaluable you are.
Lastly, I would like to say “me too,” for all of those who it’s safer to endure than speak, to all of those who don’t feel the value because they have already taken more backlash than they can handle and for all of those that are too young to speak, to scared to speak or to ashamed to speak.
With love, to every single one of us.