My spiritual path cracked open when I started practicing yoga regularly and it provoked deep emotional releases. I became infatuated by the relationship between my emotional and physical armoring. I soon pursued Massage after realizing I could facilitate the same type of releases I was experiencing in yoga by holding space and manipulating the physical body to open and clear the energetic channels that hold our emotional wounds and blockages. My healing path evolved from there as my own healing unraveled through an array of modalities that helped me discover and heal myself. This journey is still unraveling and I'm sure always will be.
The summer of 2015 I started a ceremonial training with Katie-Keath Silva and Ann Drucker to be immersed in the way of facilitating traditional Yucateca Maya Full Moon Women’s Ceremonies. These teachings were passed to them from Miss Beatrice Torres Waight, a Maya Medicine Woman from Belize and and Don Jose Tamay, a shaman elder from the Yucatan of Mexico. This particular ceremony is dedicated to a Maya Goddess Ix Chel and involves the sweet medicine of cacao. I don’t have words to express what this ceremony has been for me, all I can say is that is has been magical beyond words.
My own spiritual awakening or journey of self discovery began in Guatemala in 2008. I stumbled across a retreat that ended with a Maya Full Moon Ceremony that completely changed my life. I was introduced to yoga, meditation, metaphysics and ceremony for the first time. It was the beginning of me shedding depression, anxiety and eating disorders that I had battled my whole life and the beginning of discovering the deeply embedded traumas and wounds that were hiding within me. I began falling in love with myself and actually getting to know myself more clearly than I ever had before. This ceremonial training and apprenticeship with Katie-Keath and Ann had brought everything full circle. This is what I was meant to do and this year has been one of the most transformational years of my life.
Ix Chel, the Maya Goddess of water, fertility and the divine feminine has awakened my relationship to the sacred feminine, my womb and has helped me reclaim my power as a woman. Katie-Keath explained to me that to dedicate yourself to Ix Chel meant to dedicate yourself to impeccable self care. They explained that, she is you and you are her. Just as every other god or goddess. I was dedicating myself, to myself. To me that is what spirituality is all about. Honoring ourselves, honoring the earth, the plants and the animals and honoring each other. When we truly honor ourselves it is then that are hearts can open. Open to love and be loved. Open to nurture and be nurtured. We can then tap into our innate wisdom and live in alignment with our most genuine inner truth and crack open our full potential to offer our greatest gifts to the world. There is something of greater power in this world that can’t necessarily be understood and I don’t believe it is something that we need to understand, though it is something to trust and have faith in. Accepting the lack of understanding is a beauty in itself.
Every aspect of this Maya ceremony has infiltrated my life. The plants have become close friends. The water, the fire, the wind and the earth as well. I would guess most people have experienced a bad day of stress, grief, anger or heartache and have either jumped into the ocean or a lake, walked barefoot on the earth, smelled a bouquet of flowers or walked through a forest and suddenly felt the weights upon them lift. Nature has a profound healing power and the layers of this magic have continued to expose themselves to me in all sorts of ways.
The plants are a huge aspect of what I have been learning with Katie-Keath. I have been learning Maya healing in particular, though many of the things I’m learning are a foundation in traditions all around the world – honor the womb, the earth, the elements and all beings including the plants and animals.
In Maya healing the plants are used to brush the body. Imagine lying down with incense, singing bowls, drums or chimes playing above you and having something like a full bouquet of lemon balm or mint being brushed all over your body. The sweet scent in your face and the soft leaves on your cheek. Having your womb cared for by massaging the stomach to bring the uterus to balance. Essential oils, massage, crystals and singing. A time for you to set a healing intention of something that you would like to release, manifest or find clarity on and having a whole session revolve around that intention. It is magical and nourishing beyond words. It feels magical and nourishing beyond words to offer it as well.
Having the plants to bathe in, brush myself with, sleep with under my pillow, consume in tea, burn as incense, use as medicine for my body, mind and soul has been priceless. I have begun making flower essence, deepening a new relationship with my garden and the forest, taking and making more herbal medicine. It has been an outlet of healing that has been able to reach a layer of my soul I was not able to access before.
I feel like the luckiest girl alive. It has been such a gift to receive this healing for myself and such a joy to share this with other women in the world, my partner, community and loved ones. I feel whole being able to address the body and spirit as one. I could not be happier with where this path is taking me and I could not be more excited to share it with the world.
April 7th, 2016